This will be late, of course.

So it's, finally, the last day of BEDA.
I kind of wanted to go out with a bang, but really don't have that in me.
I will tell you that I failed a test today, took a rather long nap, showered, did laundry, and saw "The Back-Up Plan" with Amanda, followed by a healthier than usual meal at IHOP.
It was a good day, and I'm grateful that I got to experience it.
It was easy, and it was nice.
And I got to read my novel a bit, which is good.
I need to read some more here in a minute : )

Despite my really good day, I'm feeling rather awkward and empty.
Maybe a little lonely.
It's not a big deal - I'm used to it by now; even the better days can turn into something weird and emotional.
There really wasn't anything that triggered it, either; I just started thinking about my life at the current moment.
It's not bad - I have a loving family, a steady job, and decent classes that are ALMOST, ALMOST OVER!
There's also EDGEFEST tomorrow, which is AWESOME!
But despite these things, there are things in my life that need changing, and I need a break.
I can't wait until summer. I was torn between working two jobs, or going to school and working, but I am doing neither. I am sitting on my ass and writing and playing video games. I need this break.
Now let's see if mom goes for it. haha.

Today was a good day, and this month was an okay month.
Can't wait until tomorrow, though!!!
And I'm looking forward to not feeling obligated to update tomorrow.
I WILL do BEDA in August, though. For sure. I think I need to take another wack at it.
Okay, now I'm done.


Cirque Du Freak

Not much went on today.
I slept until 1, took a half shower, sat on the couch and chatted with my sister, her boyfriend, and eventually my mom.
I worked from 5 to 10; it was a decent night.
I went to my friend Kyle's house afterward, and took him to buy his "birthday cake."
We got a Boston Cream Pie cake thing, and it was sooo soo very good. I wanted to bring it home, actually, but I bought it for him; it's the only present I can really give him.
I stayed there until around 11, came home, and started studying. I don't feel like I've gotten much done, and it's 4 a.m. Jeeze.
I need to go and finish at least reading through my review; it's 3:40 a.m. and I have a test at 8. Fun...
At least I get to nap tomorrow.



I'm freakin' exhausted, man.

I didn't get into bed until around 4:30 a.m., and didn't technically fall asleep until 5 a.m.
I woke up at 6:45 a.m., forced myself out of bed, put on my presentation dress clothes, and drove up to campus.
I sat through a miserable history class and wrote notes, went through a miserable presentation (of which I got an 80% on), and sat through other people's presentations in World Literature.
When I got back home, I dragged my laptop out to the couch and sat out here with Ethan.
When he and mom left, I slept on the couch for 45 minutes; in case you can't do math, I only got 1 hour and 45 minutes of sleep last night, so the extra 45 minutes was needed.
I clocked in at work by 3, took a lunch at 5:20 (ate taco bell and read my novel while listening to music... yes, I am THAT talented), did recovery/go backs, helped make sure the store was perfect, and was finally released by 10:15 p.m. Yes, I WAS a zombie by the end, thanks for enquiring.
When I got home, I changed into my pajamas and grabbed dinner, then let Brandon in so that we could study. I copied his notes and we started to study when I got a text from Alex: "Come outside."
I put on my flip flops immediately and rushed outside, and was met by Alex and Andy.
I gave them both extra long hugs; I missed them so much... I haven't had a whole lot of time to dedicate to a social life, so it was nice of them to come to me. I really do appreciate it. I love you two : )
Also, a HUGE thanks goes out to Brandon for staying so late, and allowing me to use his notes; without you I may not have a chance of passing this test. You're a good friend : )
I got all but 1 1/4 pages of the notes copied, which I may go ahead and do really quick...
On second though, no. No I won't. I will do that before work.
Anyway. We all hung out with dad, mom and Rachel and chatted and carried on for a bit as I hastily typed notes in my zombie-like state.
Everyone left around 1:30, and it is now 2 a.m. on a Thursday.
How am I still awake, you ask?
Pumping my body full of caffiene. I've had six or seven diet cokes, a caramel java chiller with an extra shot of espresso from Sonic, and a medium diet pepsi from Taco Bell.
It is SO time for bed; I can barely register coherent conversation and think clearly.
How am I able to TYPE!?



In a better place.

Today I was finally able to sleep in until 1 in the afternoon, which is good due to the fact that I didn't sleep until 5:30 a.m.
I didn't do anything besides hang out with Rachel, Owen, Ethan and eventually Ben this afternoon.
I went to work around 5:15, and clocked in at 5:30.
I was put to the task of going through the clearance items, then I did recovery and go backs.
We got out of there by ten, and Brandon came over and we studied for our History test.
I started listening to Existence Church's "Sex" sermon (part of the "Elephant in the Room" series).
After this ends, I will practice my power point presentation, then most likely go to bed; I have class at 8.

I've thought about skipping my 8 o'clock class so that I can have a better idea of how I'm going to present. I may, but then again I know it isn't a good idea. We'll see. I have a test in there in two days, so... might want to attend.

I have tomorrow's classes, then my presentation is over and done with. Then I have a test on Friday, a test on Saturday (a ton of studying to do), EDGEFEST on Saturday!!!, Church on Sunday (or work, depending on what's happening there), need to work on a presentation for Monday's World Lit and read the novel for that, then work on the presentation and things for Saturday's Film Appreciation. Holy crap. Make it stop!
THEN there are finals! Ahhhh!

Okay, I'm done.
Talk to you guys tomorrow!

Just a day.

So I woke up on time (due to my mom) and went to classes.
I took notes in History and did our viewing guide, gathered information on a new topic in BCIS for my power point, and talked about "A Raisin in the Sun" for World Lit.
When I got home, I took a nap, and woke up to my youngest cousin being here.
I've been working on this power point ever since, really, only breaking to watch "Iron Man" (which captured my attention but wasn't as good as anticipated) and shower.
Dad was supposed to come over, but he didn't... he got drunk instead. Do me a favor... don't let alcohol consume your life. It will only consume your life, and you will only end up disappointing people.
Now I'm watching a movie with mom, and this dude has plenty of play; he hit on a woman, said Satan was egging him on in a childish way, then kissed her. haha.
With that said, I think I'm going to go. I should be refocusing on my power point, which is coming along nicely. I've got a few slides done, plenty of information, and a video example of what not to do under a copyright law that I made myself. : )



An okay day.

I wasn't feeling 100% today...
I was extremely tired, kind of sad, and just wanted to stay in bed.
I slept through church, and ended up texting a couple of people upon waking up.
I talked to Rae for about thirty minutes today; I sent her a text during my very rare emotional freak out, and she called around noon or one.
After getting off of the phone with her, I browsed the internet, and ended up dragging my laptop outside because it was so beautiful. The plan was to research for my power point, but I ended up taking a picture for dailybooth and filming an almost two minute video.
Upon coming back inside, I started research again, but ended up going and buying a $400 PS3 (came with 6 games, 6 blue ray DVDs, two controllers, and a power cable thingy).
When I got back home, I watched TV with mom, then left about thirty minutes later to meet Megan.
We (Rachel, Megan and I) saw "Oceans," which honestly wasn't my cup of tea - the music and the commentary throughout put me to sleep several times.
Afterward, the three of us stood around talking for a few minutes, and parted ways.
Rachel was nice enough to cook me eggs and toast, and mom shared her nachos with me.
Now I'm about to actually knock some of this powerpoint crap out. Blah.
This assignment is dumb.



“There are people you date “just for fun.” There are people who you spend Friday nights with and call at the beginning of the week to schedule another date, but you just go through the motions. You know in your heart that they are indeed just for fun: something to pass the time. And then suddenly, one day, you meet someone who changes it. You get scared, because as you sit through your “just for fun” date, you realize you’ve met someone who matches you. You catch yourself thinking that you could live with them, marry them, have children with them. Now I’ve never been like that: I always dated guys on more serious terms. At least… I thought they were serious terms, until I had that date with you. Suddenly, serious with them seemed like a joke. Now the scary thing is that maybe you don’t see me the same way." - Words All Yours (tmblr)

Know how this goes.

That's what I'm here for.

Today was long, but good.
I woke up bright and early for class, and ended up only being there for an hour; we discussed chapters and films associated with them.
I got my movie quiz from last time back, and I got a 100 on that.
We have two classes left of film appreciation... I'm really, truly going to miss that class.
When I got home I slept a little too long, showered, texted and returned phone calls.
I did some research on my power point topic (which is, ironically, time management).
I got ready and clocked in at work by 5:30; I was met with the information that we were allowed to use headsets! I felt like a secret agent with the headset on.
After work I came home, changed, ate, and headed on over to John's.
We sat on the couch talking for a few hours, catching up on the past couple of weeks.
I had a great time, and I really missed him; it's weird how I never realize how much I actually missed him until I leave. I would explain exactly how I feel, but I don't want to sound mushy and weird as I talk about my best friend.
I got home around two, and settled in on the couch with mom.
Rachel joined us, and we're chatting at the moment.

Tomorrow I have church and several other things going on, but I may cancel the other things, or rearrange them... I can't make everything work if I try to have a social life tomorrow.

This week is going to be crazy, and it's going to be hard to update at all.
But I will, because I am definitely committed to finishing this.
With a bang.
: )



One week.

One week left of BEDA.
Two weeks left of this semester.
So much stuff to do.
So very little time.

Today I woke up and went to my only class.
I took really good notes in History, after handing in my quiz (of which I got a 100% on).
I went to the writing center afterward and worked for two hours on it, only stopping to chat with a friend for a minute (it was good to see you : ) ).
When I got home I napped, and eventually woke up to get ready for the rest of my day.
I cleaned off my dresser in an attempt to clean my room, and had to pack up laundry in order to go to the laundromat.
We left mom at the laundromat and went to McDonald's (dollar food), the video store (Transformer's II, Slumdog Millionaire, and Iron Man), and WalMart (groceries, obviously).
After picking mom up, we were able to come home and unload the car.
We watched "Slumdog Millionaire," and I really liked it.
We're watching the second Transformers now (which I bought for $7.50... gooood deal).
annd... that brings us to now. Haha.

Hope y'all have a great day!



Only 8 days left of BEDA

That's right... eight days.
And on the vast majority of them, I've posted late.
Maybe I'll try this whole BEDA thing again in August, and post on time...
Or post late, which is more likely. Haha

Not much happened today.
I slept until 1:30 this afternoon, and made myself hop in the shower after grabbing some lunch.
I hung around with Rachel and Ethan until I had to get ready and go to work.
Work was good; nothing special.
I got home around 9:45 and did the whole internet thing.
I need to write a paper so that I can print it off tomorrow instead of rushing around on Saturday looking for a place to print it.
Stupid homework. I wish you would do yourself.


Oh the joys of blogging late...

Yes, it's 2 a.m.
Yes, this will be a hasty blog... I'm editing a vlog.

Today I went to classes, took notes in history, learned about good/bad powerpoint presentations in BCIS, and got to come home instead of going to World Lit.
I fell asleep and woke up an hour before I had to be at work.
Work went smoothly; it was kind of slow so I had enough time to quadruple check (no joke) my side that night.
I also got to see my manager's wedding pictures, which were awesome, and got to see him all giddy because he's married - I think that's really sweet.
When I got home I ate dinner and played Wii sports with my dad and sister, and filmed my Youtube video for two hours...
This new system of film-edit-film-edit-film-edit-view-edit-film-etc. just doesn't work; it takes entirely too long -_-
And I may get off of here soon and watch a movie or play KHII or something... I have slacked SO bad on KHII.
And! Our movie that we filmed on Saturday is edited, and almost ready to post. yay!

Okay, that's all from me today.




As is usual for 4/20, I got together with a group of friends and got TOTALLY stoned.
Juuuuust kidding.
I actually did a ton of other stuff instead, because 4/20 is just not a "holiday" that I'm interested in celebrating.

I spent the wee hours of the morning this morning watching home movies with my mom and sister; we got to see several hours of our childhood, including a visit to Florida to see my dad's side, a chinese new year parade, and a country western play.
I finally got into bed at 5:30, and slept until 1:30 in the afternoon.
After showering, I watched youtube videos and started my chapter 28 quiz, and had to get ready for work around 4:30.
I talked on the phone with Alex for a minute, then left for work at 5:15.
I clocked in at 5:30 and worked until 10.
Work went well, except that the amount of questions and random odd requests that people had stressed me out.
Now I'm home and about to finish my chapter 28 quiz and watch "Two Brothers" with mom.

Homework list:
History - ch. 27 & 28 quizzes, review for test, do graphic organizer.
BCIS - prepare a power point presentation.
World Lit - Read "A Raisin in the Sun," and "The Note."
Film Appreciation - write film critique over "How to Train Your Dragon," write paper over filming experience, make storyboard. I already finished ALL of the chapter quizzes, so I'm fine there.
Oh college... your amount of work is overwhelming at times.

Okay, I suppose that's all.
I can't afford to procrastinate any more.



Not much to report.

Today I woke up bright and early to go to class, after not getting to bed until 1 or 2 a.m.
I woke up an hour late, however; at 7:25 I recieved a phone call waking me up, rolled out of bed, threw on some random clothes, scarfed down a yogurt, brushed my teeth, grabbed my stuff and got out the door. It took a total of ten minutes; I didn't touch my hair or do makeup this morning.
After taking notes in history, and stopping because I was frustrated, I went with Brandon to the Library to work on our graphic organizer.
I didn't have BCIS, so I skipped that.
I went to World Lit and was met with viewing "The Raisin in the Sun," which is actually good. I also found out that class is cancelled so that we can catch up on our reading; that doesn't make sense to me, but I'll take it.
After arriving home, I climbed back into bed and slept until 4.
When I woke up, I got some lunch, dragged my laptop to mom's room and proceeded to work on my Film Appreciation CD Rom thing. I knocked those out after a couple of hours, so that's awesome.
I watched "Thelma and Louise" with mom, and I rather liked it; I'm just sad that they couldn't create a better lives for themselves in Mexico.
After the movie, and eating a delicious dinner of pork chops and scalloped potatos, we put in "The Watchmen" and watched it.
Honestly, I think I liked it, though I'm not sure; there was too much information presented to me to digest.
Now I'm typing up this blog, and about to play some KHII.



He's my K-night in shining armor - my Hero Sandwich

I didn't fall asleep this morning until 4 a.m. because I just /wasn't/ tired.
I woke up at 8:15 to a weird dream and a creepy 30 Seconds to Mars song and got ready for church/film class.
I went to Sunday school, and it was severely awkward. I thought it was getting better at one point because I started talking to a couple of people, but it didn't - the temporary sunday school teacher seemed really uncomfortable.
At 10:30 we were released, and I swapped my church shirt for a black tank top with my jacket over it, and drove to pick Chris up.
We met up with Eric1, Eric2, and Kris in order to film our movie for Film Appreciation, and ended up with a ton of footage by around 2.
We went to Fuzzy's again and ate lunch together, after which Kris took his leave.
Eric1, Eric2, Chris and I continued filming, and finished around 4:30.
We reviewed some clips, and left around 5:30.
I dropped Chris off at home and arrived home around 45 minutes later, and sat in my bed with my laptop, only to pass out for an hour until my mom arrived with a really awesome coffee.
I ended up playing "Sorry" with dad, Rachel and Ben, was decimated once and won once.
Ben and dad left shortly after, and I started my History quiz around that time.
And we're watching Winnie the Pooh movies right now, which is where this awesome quote that is the title of this blog was pulled from.
And that's all.

Also, this post would have been up before midnight had I not decided to work on my History quiz. hah.



Leave that poor cat alone!

Rachel is harassing our cat, Tigger.
Tigger hates being picked up, but Rachel insisted upon picking her up.
poor Tigger.

Today wasn't good.
It wasn't one of those terrible days, but it wasn't the sort of day I'm used to having.

I started it out argueing on Facebook with a guy I knew in high school.
I replied to his status with a matter-of-fact statement that he didn't like ("I can use proper grammar and you can't. You suck." to his "Im in Las Vegas and your not here so you suck").
This led to him being a complete asshole, firing back with "Shut up Kimbra I don't need your annoying comments on my wall."
"Wow, someone is being a huge asshole. Good morning, Sunshine." Then "And. This is a status, not your wall."
He fired back with something about "Is your life so pathetic that you needed to say that?"
I said "Don't be mad that I'm smarter than you ____. Now run along and get trashed."
And I deleted him.
The mature thing to have done would be to not comment back at all - to simply ignore the douchebag.
But I didn't. I fought back, and then deleted him. This continued until a little after I got home from class.
I'm sick of a few people and their constant douchebaggery. I'm finished trying to be nice to them when I get offended. I really don't care - if you can't be nice, I don't need you in my life.
That's an overdramatic statement that I may or may not rethink later, but for now it stands.

Class went well, though.
We watched "Cabaret," which is an old musical that takes place in Berlin, Germany.
I honestly really liked it; it left me speechless at the end.
Some of the characters bothered me, but the actors were so good that it made up for it.
I took a nap after I got home.
And woke up, sat on the internet for awhile.
I thought I needed to be at work by 5:30, but it ended up being 5, so I was 15 minutes late.
... Awesome, Kimbra. Way to suck at life.

Work was okay. It wasn't good, but it wasn't terrible.

And that brings you to when I got home, ate, showered, and sat down on my couch.

I'm going to church tomorrow (most likely Sunday School instead of the serman), then meeting with my film group; I think we're actually filming tomorrow, which is nice.

Okay, that's all for now.



I talk about myself way too much...

I'm starting to have an overload.
I think it's fine for me to post spontanious blog posts about random occurences in my day, but this BEDA thing is getting ridiculous.
I'm only halfway through -_-
It doesn't help that I just filmed a vlog...
I'm drained of self for right now : /

I went to my one class today, and slept for awhile.
I threw a fit when my sister's boyfriend showed up out of nowhere.
I did some homework.
Went with Rachel to do our laundry.
Watched Tv with her.
Did dishes.
Filmed a video (that took two hours).
And here I am.

I know. My life is interesting.
This random guy started chatting Rachel and I up at the laundromat, and his opening line was "Do you think you two could watch my laundry and put it in the dryer when it's done?"
Rachel and I just stared at him, and I managed a "No, I think we're okay. Thanks, though."
He talked with us for a few more minutes, and it was an awkward conversation to say the least.
After that Rachel and I went shopping, and ended up getting anime/books.
Yup yup.

Okay, that's it.


Almost forgot... Again.

Today I woke up around 2 to my cousin calling me.
I met him at the front door, let him get his gas can out of my mom's trunk, and watched he and my uncle leave.
I read a text message that I got while asleep, and allowed myself to be pulled into work two hours early.
I ate and got ready really quick, and arrived at work by 3:30.
I ended up being put to the task of making a poster for the upcoming NASCAR race, and not being too thrilled with the assignment; I'm good with specific directions, but broad directions like "Make a poster," I don't do so well.
I spent thirty minutes fretting; I didn't even know the colors of the race track that it was being held at, much less how to go about making a poster for this race!
After finding out (Thanks Cliff!) I was able to gather supplies. I spent the next three hours tracing letters from stencils, getting smudges everywhere, coloring the letters in, and slapping a ton of race car stickers onto it. I finally finished around 6:30, helped unload a U-boat of Red/White/Blue stuff, and finally did recovery/gobacks.
I was at that and was there until 10:15, when we were finally released.
Upon returning home, I visited with mom and Rachel and presented the presents that I got for Mamaw.
We ended up putting in a movie ("Small Soldiers" unfortunately; it has the WEIRDEST soundtrack ever) and I started my History quiz. I chatted with a few people, and facebooked some. Rachel and I watched "Big Daddy" after that, and I finished my quiz 1/4th of the way through "Charlotte's Web."
And here I am!
I'm actually doing a survey, but I didn't want to neglect you!

I get to wake up in three hours and go to class. Oh joy.
At least I'm off tomorrow!! : D
Have to make a storyboard, write up a resume, read through the script a million times, and figure out what homework I need to get done for Monday. Oh the joys of being a responsible college student/young adult.

Okay, I'm tired.
Have a good day!



Late Post

I am drained.
I hope I have enough mental energy to write a blog today...

I woke up after only getting three hours of sleep (I woke up later than usual, otherwise it would have been two and a half or something).
Then I went to classes...
I listened to notes in History, sat outside my BCIS classroom and eventually left and went with a guy in my class to get some food and chat, and took a test in World Lit.
After arriving home around 12:30, I made and ate a lunch, and drove mom and I to the rec center to get our taxes done.
I ended up having to come home to find the bank account number/routing number, and ended up sitting up there for another 45 minutes while they did mom's, finished mine, and reviewed both of us.
We were finished at 2:30, and I hauled it home, dropped mom off, and sped on over to work.
Work was alright; it was rather long.
I didn't even help with the truck today... I ended up putting regular items in seasonal side counters, took my lunch, took my break because people were driving me crazy, did go backs and recovery, and left at 9:30 with everyone else.
After arriving home, I grabbed dinner and sat with my dad and sister in my living room whilst on Facebook; I watched dad sleep, and watched bits and pieces of "Criminal Minds" with Rachel.
We eventually played Dominos, and I decimated the both of them. I'm quite good at that game usually.
I rearranged the movies on the movie shelves, and found out that we had multiple copies of SEVERAL movies; they were driving me insane.
And now I'm here. Tada!

I really need to clean this room... I can't stand it, but I haven't made time to.
I don't think it's happening, either; tomorrow I will be lazy until work, Friday I will work on the story board/CD Rom assignments for Film Appreciation, Saturday I have class and work, Sunday I have church and Film Group. I'm booked.
Maybe if I took "being lazy" out of the equation I might actually get other things done...
I don't see that happening at the moment, though.

I'm taking part in a series that "Existance Church" is doing (and by 'taking part' I mean that I am listening to the controversial messages that they will be going over).
So that'll be fun.

I really hope I keep changing, and for the better; it's a fun transition.
I also hope I keep getting to know people better - that's fun as well. The true test will be when classes are over - will we still talk, or are we going to drop all communication? I hope we still talk : )

I think I'm also coming to terms with who I really am. That sounds kind of cliche, so forgive me (also, forgive me for not putting the accent on the "e").
I like it, because I think that I've held back some within the past couple of years...
I felt that if I changed too much, people wouldn't want to take part in my life.
I realized that that was holding me back, so I'm not letting it; I'm doing what feels right, and if the people in my life love me, they'll go with it.

... Okay, I hope that makes sense.
I'm going to go watch a movie or something...
Something that requires less brain power.



Thirteen Minutes 'til Midnight

Wow, look at me, I'm a mean, lean, bloggin' machine!
Not really.
Okay, I'm typing really fast to beat midnight, so here we go.

Today was boring, really.
All I did was wake up at 1 and wander around my house for four hours, neglecting anything that I /should/ do for classes.
I went on Youtube, I ate at some point, I chatted with mom for a minute, I showered, I talked to Rachel and her guy, I did my hair, and eventually actually got ready for work.
Work went well - I worked with people that I enjoy working with, and we got a lot accomplished.
We were there thirty minutes later than usual, but that's fine.
After getting home I changed into my PJs, made myself a lovely dinner of a salad with chicken, ham and crackers in it, and have been in bed ever since devouring that lovely salad and desert yogurt.
I know, my life is OH SO VERY interesting...

Tomorrow I get to wake up super early and go to classes. Even though my day is predictible, I won't spoil it for you - I'll make you wait until tomorrow to her about it in detail.
I have to get my taxes done, and I'm not excited.
And I work.
Oh the joys of being an adult.

Okay, weeelllll. That's all I have for you today.
Have a great day!



What, it's before 2 a.m.!?

Instead of forgetting I figure I'll type out a blog really quick.

Today went well enough.
I woke up to go to my 3 classes, and saw a BUNNY when I arrived on campus.
It was cuuuute. And I wanted to take it home with me.
I texted one of my friends "I totally just saw a bunny on campus."
"That means it'll be a good day!" he responded.
"It better be a damn good cute and fluffy day," I said.
Yes, I'm whitty/cranky at 7:30 a.m.
I got to the campus early to print off the slideshow that we needed today for our in-class quiz, only to find out that I needed to transfer it to a word document, essentially making the notes a layout.
Fine, I could do that; I had thirty minutes, and it only took 20.
I turned in Quiz 24, took Quiz 25, and escaped that class unscathed for the most part.
In BCIS I took a test that took around 40 minutes, and I got a 90% on it. Whoo!
In World Lit we discussed "The Importance of Being Earnest" some more, and have in there on Wednesday.
I came home after class and took a nap, only to be woken up at 5 by mom telling me that dad was here.
So I crawled out of bed, got dressed, and came out to the living room.
Mom was gone, so I watched Tv and hung out with Rachel and dad.
Mom came home and brought the cousins, and we hung out with them for a bit.
We all left the house at the same time, going our seperate directions (dad, Rachel and I to the laundromat, the cousins and mom to the cousins' house).
It only took 30 minutes to do our laundry, which was nice.
Now we're home, chillin'.
Mom brought me home a magnificent "How to Train Your Dragon" happy meal toy (the boy riding Toothless).
And... we're trying to decide whether or not we want to watch a two hour movie. I have to tell ya, I'm not into these 2 hour movies, even though I can stay awake until around 4 a.m. tomorrow morning without getting into too much trouble.
Blah. We'll see.

Also, I've decided on where to get my next tattoo...
I'm getting it on my left side, under where my bra hits. That's going to hurt like a bad word, but it'll be worth it in the end. Now I just have to figure out which Hedwig tattoo I want...

Okie dokie, artichokie. That's all for now.



I almost forgot... Again.

Last night after I settled in, one of my friends texted me and wanted to know whether or not I want to see him get a tattoo.
I ended up going with him to a place called "Psycho Clown," where the guys were kind of jerks, they played a creepy movie involving a circus, and it was small and cramped. But it had strobe lights and interesting art, so that's cool.
After I got home I watched TV with my mom and sister, and went to bed late.

Today was actually a really good day.

I woke up around 9:30 to get ready for church, and I arrived at 11.
I sat with Rae's mom again, and a couple more of her family members.
I sang today - I stepped out of that cone of silence that comes with being uncomfortable and I sang. Not loudly, but it was there.
After church I rushed home, and ended up going shopping with mom. We went to Ross, Pet Co (for cat food), Good Will (found my red hoodie and an owl!), and WalMart (got a multimedia shelf for all of these movies we got at around Christmas).
After shopping, Mom and I came home, and I went back to bed for a few hours.
After waking up I reheated some chicken, ate, worked on my History quiz, took pictures of myself (because I'm kind of vain?), went to WalMart, and came back to finish my quiz, all the while hanging out with my sister (and I watched a ton of kid cartoons).
Now I'm procrastinating the whole sleep thing, because I'm not that tired.

So that giddy feeling I mentioned yesterday?
Still here.
Don't know what it is, but I like it : )


So Energetic Lately

I daresay I'm almost happy.
I have no idea what the deal is, but I like it.

I finished "Will Grayson, Will Grayson" by John Green and David Levithan today, and yes I did find several more quotes that I won't share; I figure three is enough.

I also went to Film class, and loved chatting with the fellas before and after; they're all so fun, and it's nice meeting and getting to know new people.

I took a nap afterward, went to work and had a good night (though I worry about one of my coworkers; I hope she's okay).

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to church (and by 'supposed' I mean I plan on it and I want to), so I should probably go to bed soon.
Then I have the rest of the day free. I'll probably study for History stuff, watch Youtube, clean my room, read for World Lit, etc. etc. because I can't stand to be irresponsible for very long.

I think that's it.



Excerpt 3

"...I just love you. When did who you want to screw become the whole game? Since when is the person you want to screw the only person you get to love... who even gives a fuck about sex!? People act like it's the most important thing humans do, but come on. How can our sentient fucking lives revolve around something slugs can do. I mean, who you want to screw and whether to screw them? Those are important questions, I guess. But they're not that important. You know what's important? Who would you die for?" - Will Grayson, "Will Grayson, Will Grayson," John Green

Amen, Will. Amen.


Excerpt 2

Same novel, same character, David Levithan's part again.

"when things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again. it's because a little piece gets lost - the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. the whole shape has changed." - Will Grayson from "Will Grayson, Will Grayson" by John Green and David Levithan.

This man is a literary genius...
I'm glad that they teamed up to write this book.


"here's the sick, twisted thing: part of me thinks i deserve this... if i wasn't such a lame excuse for a person, something right might happen to me. it's not fair, because i didn't ask for dad to leave, and i didn't ask to be depressed, and i didn't ask for us to have no money, and i didn't ask to want to fuck boys, and i did'nt ask to be so stupid, and i didn't ask to have no real friends, and i didn't ask to have half the shit that comes out of my mouth come out of my mouth. all i wanted was one fucking break, one idiotic good thing, and that was clearly too much to ask for, too much to want." - Will Grayson from "Will Grayson, Will Grayson" by John Green and David Levithan.

I wanted to document this, because it sticks - I've been here, and I'm hoping he gets out soon.
(except for the fucking boys part. for me that's totally normal and I'm not fighting it. haha.)

I almost forgot!

I've been doing well with BEDA even though I update late every day, but tonight I almost completely forgot.

Today I woke up at 1 to a text message, then ended up sleeping in until 3 in the afternoon.
After waking up I lazed about in bed for a couple of hours, then got ready for my night.
I went to the bank, then to Walmart to get to get a $20 bill split into a ten and two fives.
After coming back home, I filmed a youtube video (http://www.youtube.com/thenameiskimbra)and posted it.
Then Rachel, mom and I went to a book store so that I could buy a copy of "Will Grayson, Will Grayson" by John Green and David Levithan, and ended up buying "The Note," which I picked to read for World Lit, and a copy of "Alice's Adventures in Wonderland" with "Through the Looking Glass" slipped in there.
Then we went to the laundromat to do laundry, back home to start drying our clothes, then to Walmart for groceries.
We made and ate dinner while watching TV, and I showered at some point.
Now I'm reading the John Green/David Levithan book and chatting. Yay!?

Tomorrow I don't have class, which means I don't have to wake up in three hours. Score!
But I do have to read some notes and do an assignment so that's dumb.
And I work at 5:30, then hopefully hanging out with Kimmi.

Saturday all I'm doing is working, and Sunday I'm pretty sure I'm off and will be going to church and getting together with my film group.

Okay, that's all for now even though I feel like I could type for ages and write a novel in one night.



Quick update.

I woke up and went to classes. History – took my test (by doing an extra credit thing I brought my average up two points, and when she put my test in my grade rose to a 67% - not good, but definitely an improvement), BCIS – worked in Access and ended up doing some homework in there before my last class, World Lit – watched part of “The Importance of Being Earnest,” which was actually really entertaining. And I got chocolate chip cookies. Yum. I napped when I got home, then woke up and sat on my couch for awhile. Dad came over and cooked dinner for us. We watched “The Aviator,” took a break while he was cooking and watched “Criminal Minds” and “CSI: New York.” He left around midnight, and I did a TON of BCIS assignments, catching up on all of the Access work.

Future – Get to do laundry tomorrow, then hang out with Kimmi for the first time in weeks. May see “Why did I get Married Too?” with Alex and Andy. Friday I don’t have class, but have an assignment to do anyway, then I work. Saturday I work, and Sunday I’m supposed to get together with my film group.

There should be a new KHII post up soon, as well as a new vlog; keep a look out, eh?



I suck at this

This whole "BEDA" thing is going terribly because I can't seem to post on time.
But if I'm posting late that still means I'm posting one a day, right, so maybe I'm succeeding in my own round about way.
I'm so tired. I almost didn't update today.

I spent half of the day working on homework.
And I worked.
And I have a test at 8 a.m. (it's 3 a.m. now).
And... I'm stressed out.
And trying not to go crazy.
And sleepy.
And. Freaking out about assignments; I still haven't read for World Lit. Will it happen? Nope. Not before class.
Maybe I should just go to sleep.
That... is an awesome idea.

(better post tomorrow)



Hello 1 a.m.

I started this lovely Monday by oversleeping.
I went to all 3 classes; we watched a movie in History, was in BCIS for 30 minutes, then sat outside my World Lit classroom for an hour. That class was actually intrigueing today; we looked at Comp II books and gave input, then finished discussing Hedda Gabler and took a quiz over it.
I took a nap when I got home and woke up at 4:30 in the afternoon dazed and confused.
My uncle came by shortly after, left ten minutes after that, and I hung out with my mom and sister for a couple of hours watching Sherlock Holmes again and working on History crap.
My dad came over at 6:30, hung around, and mom and I left at 9 to go to the movie place thing.
Shortly after we got home, Brandon came over to work on the History stuff.
We've been at this since around 10. it's 1:30 a.m. I'm not happy.
I missed out on watching Jurassic Park with my family : /
As much as that movie haunted me through my childhood, I really like it.

You can tell my heart isn't in this post; I'm way too frustrated to come up with a better one.



Tired Easter

Today started off by me trying to ignore my alarm clock, but being woken up by my awesome friends anyway in the way of text messages.
I left my house for church around 10:30, and got lost a couple of times on the way; I almost turned around because I was so frustrated, but I felt that I needed to perservere and get there.
When I walked into my long-lost church home, I ran into my friend Megan's mom and found out that she is very sick; I felt so bad. I wanted to do something for her but I didn't know what to do.
I walked into the service late, and ended up standing next to strangers during the first song.
I found my friend Rae's mom and sat with her for the rest of the service; she gave me a REALLY big hug and cried about the fact that I showed up. It was very touching, and I enjoyed seeing her.
The service's message didn't touch me, though a video that they played did; I choked back tears several times.
After the service I saw one of the two people responsible for my Christianity, Joy, and we chatted for a minute.
I had to run along and pick one of the guys in my film class up and drive to another guy's house.
When we arrived, we weren't there for very long before we went to a taco place to eat; it was delicious.
We sat and discussed movies for about an hour, then went back to the house, which is amazing, and watched the last two rooms of the movie "Four Rooms."
Then we watched the first five minutes of "Californication." Oh the joy of seeing women's boobs that aren't my own (/sarcasm).
We talked about films and made a basic outline for our movie before the first guy and I took our leave.
An hour later, I was home.
I checked my social networking sites and ended up going into the living room to try to get my sister to go to walmart with me; I passed out on the couch for thirty minutes while waiting.
We eventually went to walmart, and when we got back John was here, so the three of us hung out. John and I wrestled again and I kept getting him into headlocks; good day. Haha.
We watched "Driving Lessons," and mom arrived during the middle of it with cupcakes and luggage, all of which was a welcome sight.
Now I'm here, about to pass out so I can wake up for classes tomorrow.
Today has been such a busy day.

Oh! And as you may know, my license was missing for a week or two. Today I looked on the kitchen table and saw an envelope with my name and address hand written on the front. When I opened it, my license fell out. Thank you, good samaritan who mailed it ot me!!



Of Course It's Late...

I know it's late in terms of my BEDA post, but let's just pretend that it's the third day.
And we're all happy that I'm posting.
Even though I'm sure not very many people read this particular blog.

Not a lot has happened...
I slept through my one class yesterday, and went to work.
Today I went to Film App, watched "Raging Bull" (did not like it that much), met with my group, made plans to meet tomorrow, and came home to nap.
At 4 I got a text from my manager asking where I was, and I proceeded to call him and explain that I thought that I wasn't supposed to be there until 5:30.
Since it was already 4:05, I told him I would be there by 4:30.
Work was alright - too busy and too many kids for my taste, but alright nonetheless.

I showered once I got home, and did some BCIS homework, but didn't get very far; I have a headache and it is relentless.

Mom is coming home tomorrow night!
Aaaand I may or may not reconsider going to church in the morning.

Okay, I suppose that's all.
I don't have patience for a detailed blog.



Don't Worry!

Don't worry! I didn't forget to update again in order to actually do BEDA!
(I know you weren't as worried as I was, but still).

Today I slept through my only class and recieved an a 0 on a quiz that was due.
I woke up at 2, freaked out, emailed my quiz to my professor (who hasn't responded) and lazed about in bed for a few hours.
I went to work, had a bad night, saw Kimmi which made it better, and finally got home around 9:45.
I haven't done anything since - just sat down on my desktop preparing to film a video.

I am in a foul mood at the moment.
It could be any number of things, and I'm hoping it goes away soon.
Maybe I'm tired. I should probably go to bed soon.

There are several things about the human race at the moment that are bothering me.
Like that doctor who put a sign in his window saying that he doesn't help Obama supporters.
Or that "Christian" group who protests SOLDIERS FUNERALS.
And then there's that school in BFE refusing to let a lesbian student to attend.
Why can't we all just get past our differences and get along?

Okay, I'm done for today.
Not a whole lot to say.



I commit to this idea and am determined to create something EVERY DAY in April, including weekends. Every day, I will find something to say. I embrace the reality that there is always something to talk about, if you are willing to take the time to look for it.

I Kimbra promise to blog every day in April.

(we will just pretend that since I haven't slept yet it's still the 1st.)

Last year in April of 2009, Youtubers and Nerdfighters alike from around the globe participated in "Blog Every Day in April (BEDA)," and from what I remember it was a huge success.
This year, even though it doesn't seem as big, I'm doing it.
I blog semi-regularly anyway, so what could blogging every day hurt?
If anything it will improve my writing and show you that I think about things that are deeper than what I usually talk about.
We'll see.

My day yesterday didn't go as planned at all.
I did attend classes, and they were quite normal...
In History we watched a video and filled in blanks as we watched it, in BCIS we learned more about Microsoft Access, and in World Lit we discussed Hedda Gabler.
When I got home from classes, I ended up waiting on Rachel for an hour (we were supposed to leave for my grandma's) and passed out while I waited.
After were finally able to go (I did dishes, put the trash on the curb, made sure the cats had food and water, and made sure they were all inside for the night), I had to run errands to QT and 7-11. After finally getting onto the highway and traveling for 30 minutes, my car broke down. Let me say this again. It broke down. On the highway. In the left hand shoulder. So I'm on the phone with my mom, freaking out, trying to figure out what to do, and after trying to proceed I finally took her advice to get off of the highway.
I was stranded three or four times during this stretch of time, having to honk at people because I could feel my car going out again.
Once I found an exit, I was STILL on the highway, but a different part. So what do I do? I pull over into the left shoulder AGAIN, and stare at an exit that is three lanes away, during a time where people could come whizzing down the highway.
After making several phone calls (a few to mom, a few to dad), I managed to reverse my car, get off the highway, and make it a mile down the road to an intersection that dad knew.
I pulled into a McDonalds and bought ice cream cones for Rachel and I, along with a large diet coke that I thought we were going to share but ended up drinking half of it before leaving it. Whoops.
He stopped at an autoparts store on the way to get us, but didn't know which part to get. He picked us up, drove us to the autoparts store where we picked up a fuel pump and fuel additive, to WalMart for tools and then back to McDonalds for my car. Then we went BACK to WalMart so he could work on the car, and met a homeless man that lives out of his truck. He was nice enough to assist dad a little, and in return dad jumped his car.
When dad finished working on my car, I drove around and it seemed to be doing just fine.
On the highway and roads near home, however, it started trying to stall as I accelerated, leveling out at 40 mph. Great.
So I called my mom (who had been on the phone with me off and on all day) and she told me that my aunt no longer needed her car, so I was able to talk my aunt into letting me have it back.
Whenever we finally got home after our Hellish day, we settled in and started eating dinner.
My aunt came by and took me to the car, driving us another 40 minutes away, and I had to drive the other 40 minutes back.
I was exhausted.
But not too exhausted to skip out on playing KHII, which I played 2 or 3 hours of once I got home.
I went to bed late, and woke up at 9 to my aunt leaving gas money on my desk.
After falling asleep, I woke up to my sister at 12 telling me that my alarms were going off.
I sat up and was immediately scared because I thought I had to work or go to classes.
I didn't, so I flopped back into bed and tried sleeping, until I heard "Ethan is here!"
I woke up and hung out with my sister and cousin for a few more hours, only excusing myself to shower.
I chilled on my couch with my laptop in my lap while they played WoW.
I took Ethan home when the time came, came back home, and after another couple of hours Rachel and I went and did our laundry.
Afterward we went to Family Video, where we rented a few movies.
Then we came back home and were joyously lazy.
I chatted with a few people and sat on Youtube for awhile.
I'm actually watching videos now (www.youtube.com/unculturedproject) and am obsessed with the UnculturedProject and plan on watching all of his videos within the next few days...
What he's doing is amazing. And it makes me want to help.

Okay, that's sufficient enough for tonight.
You'll hear about the rest of my day later.